Sabotage!!!

This past weekend I was Sabotaged!!! My husband, unconsciously (i hope) sabotaged me! So, okay, I made the revelation that I'm taking Alli and that I want to get serious about losing weight, well, my husband decides that on Saturday he wants to go out to Moose's Tooth (our favorite pizza joint), then after that Cold Stone Creamery!!!! AHHHGGGG, I'm still weak!!! I can't and don't fight it, so off we went! At the pizza joint I order the healthiest pizza short of the veggie one- I ordered a chicken pizza with spinach, a little cream cheese and bacon bits. It was gross, but we ate it. Afterwards at the Ice cream shop I ordered a fruit smoothie, instead of an ice cream, where as he orders this decadent peanut butter, chocolate, and birthday cake dessert!!! The BASTARD!!! LOL!!! Well, the next day we ate left over pizza, and I made enchiladas---not a good idea!!! Though I hadn't taken Alli since Noon the previous Friday I still had it in my system on Sunday evening--so I got the yucky pleasure of experiencing the treatment effects!!! Nasty, crampy, bloated, gassy, diarrhea!!! I got through it fine, and it renewed my conviction to stick to a healthy diet!

I don't think I'm ugly, but I would like to my legs actually look like legs and not the tree trunks that they are. And if anyone can help me find my ankles I'd sure appreciate it! (**LOL**) Oh and my Knees seem to have gone missing as well!!!! For those of you, who look at माय स्ताट्स and think, "She's sooooo not fat!" or "What in the hell is her problem, she ain't fat, why I'm bigger than her!" Well, I don't mean to offend anyone, I am proud of my body I just want a better one....is that so bad? Plus according to the BMI index I am considered OBSESE!!! Obese is such an ugly word....but it took that word to realize that I'm on an unhealthy path frought with all kinds of medical problems down the road. I've decided that I need to make a change, and I believe Alli and the support of my sister will get me through this journey of transformation.