CHECK IN # 1

Well, today was my first scheduled weekly check in. I now weigh 185 lbs, which means I have lost 5 pounds since weighing in at 190 lbs on June 20, 2007!!! I can't believe it!! I'm soooo happy!! I have to admit when I stepped on the scale on Jun 20, I freaked out!!! It was then that I realized that I was in serious trouble!!! I was one holiday season away from 200 lbs!!! TWO HUNDRED POUNDS!!! So that's when I decided enough was enough!!! I started the Alli program. It's not this super intensive program that is a shock to your system, but rather it is a slowly but surely method!! As you can see, for those of you who don't feel that 5 pounds is significant: 2 cups of butter equals 1 POUND:

So, for all of you dieters and gym rats who need a pick me up after discovering that you've only lost 2 lbs, next time your are in your fridge, grab a stick of butter or two to get a feel of how much weight you've actually lost. My next check-in is scheduled for 6 July 2007. This past week I have only been dieting, but this comming week I'm going to be incorporating exercise. I'll keep you posted on how things go! Below I have posted my Nutrition log for the past week (yes I know I need more water!):

Sabotage!!!

This past weekend I was Sabotaged!!! My husband, unconsciously (i hope) sabotaged me! So, okay, I made the revelation that I'm taking Alli and that I want to get serious about losing weight, well, my husband decides that on Saturday he wants to go out to Moose's Tooth (our favorite pizza joint), then after that Cold Stone Creamery!!!! AHHHGGGG, I'm still weak!!! I can't and don't fight it, so off we went! At the pizza joint I order the healthiest pizza short of the veggie one- I ordered a chicken pizza with spinach, a little cream cheese and bacon bits. It was gross, but we ate it. Afterwards at the Ice cream shop I ordered a fruit smoothie, instead of an ice cream, where as he orders this decadent peanut butter, chocolate, and birthday cake dessert!!! The BASTARD!!! LOL!!! Well, the next day we ate left over pizza, and I made enchiladas---not a good idea!!! Though I hadn't taken Alli since Noon the previous Friday I still had it in my system on Sunday evening--so I got the yucky pleasure of experiencing the treatment effects!!! Nasty, crampy, bloated, gassy, diarrhea!!! I got through it fine, and it renewed my conviction to stick to a healthy diet!

I don't think I'm ugly, but I would like to my legs actually look like legs and not the tree trunks that they are. And if anyone can help me find my ankles I'd sure appreciate it! (**LOL**) Oh and my Knees seem to have gone missing as well!!!! For those of you, who look at माय स्ताट्स and think, "She's sooooo not fat!" or "What in the hell is her problem, she ain't fat, why I'm bigger than her!" Well, I don't mean to offend anyone, I am proud of my body I just want a better one....is that so bad? Plus according to the BMI index I am considered OBSESE!!! Obese is such an ugly word....but it took that word to realize that I'm on an unhealthy path frought with all kinds of medical problems down the road. I've decided that I need to make a change, and I believe Alli and the support of my sister will get me through this journey of transformation.

Spilled the beans!

Today, I spilled the beans, and told my husband my intentions to use Alli. He initially was resistant to the idea, saying that I don't need a pill to help me lose weight. He also expressed his concerns over the treatment effects. I assured him that I was well aware of the possible side effects, and told him that those were only consequences of straying from a healthy diet. I have absolutely no worries! I know that this plan is going to help me through to realize my weight loss goals!! I'm a stout 187lb 5 ft 5 in Puerto Rican woman on a mission!!! I will realize my goal of 140lbs!! And maybe ny dream of 135lbs!