BINGE

This week has been a struggle. It just started off all wrong, but I'm getting ahead of my self. As you may or may not know the release of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows occurred on July 21, 2007. I volunteered to take a co-worker's child to the Harry Potter Midnight Madness Party event. Before we got there My husband and I, decised it would be nice to treat the girl to a dinner at one of her favorite restaraunts --TGIF. This where it all started to get a bit sticky.....I looked on the menu and tried to order the most healthy thing possible. I wound up with Mahi Mahi---not bad...then I tried to order a low cal drink that wasn't a soda---I ended up getting a Strawberry Lemonade--which really turned out to be was a strawberry slurpy with a splash of lemonade---oh so yummy--but a completely questionable choice. So I didn't do so bad there.

Then it was on to the the Harry Potter Midnight Madness party!!! I did good up until around 11:30 pm. Both the girl and I got a little parched to say the least so I decided to indugle and we ordered some sort of Frappaccino like beverage. I did my best---I order a bluberry cream frappaccino thingy in the smallest size...which at starbucks is about 16oz. As I took the beverage I stared at it, and realized as a bought it to my lips that there are about a full days worth of calories in this single drink...and it's 11:30pm!! Night time is the worse time to take in a large amount of calories---there's no time to burn it, unless you work the night shift---I don't. I reasoned with my psyche that it is Okay to Splurge every once and while, but as I took each sip I could have sworn I felt a new dimple develop on my already luxouriously dimpled butt! I finished about half of the drink, and threw it away. So I saved myself somewhat from a huge set back.

Saturday was the MDA Live Ride---which we mamged to raise $1,100 for (thanks for all who helped out) I had gotten home around 1:30 am from the HP party and we had to up and running by 7am and out the door by 7:30am...needless to say there was no time for breakfast....We had a long day ahead of us. We drove about 150 miles to the MDA event destination...we arrived there around 1 o'clock in the afternoon...I had no snacks along the way. I was starving...once again I did my best with the meal the served. I chose a sic inch pre-made turkey sub. It was the best darn turkey sub I've ever had---though I knew why: REAL MAYONAISE!!! OMG!!! then they also gave us an ice cream bar!!! HAAGEN DAZ!!!! HOLY CRAP, I was in trouble...I ate about 1/4th of the ice cream bar which contained 290 calories! Then when we got home, for dinner I made my low fat chicken enchiladas which have about 110 cals per enchalada. Not too bad.

Your probably wondering where I slipped up....Well, Sunday was pretty uneventful I woke up so late my brunch was a bowl of Corn Flakes, and for dinner I had my subway usual--turkey. It was Monday that really screwed me up. My husband, the dear soul that he is, had to go on another overnite TDY. It was on this day that i could not stop my self from BINGING!!! I felt horrible--even while I was doing it!!! I couldn't stop it! I shovel handfuls of chex mix in to my mouth, and I ate two Fruit Bar back to back!!! I even started shoveling condy down my gullet!! Grant I was bingin on diet stuff---it was still bingin none the less. I felt powerless, and ashamed. Even though my "Binge" still did not exceed my caloric max for the day--it still made me feel utterly wretched!!! So for the rest of the week, I pumped it up it to high gear and regained my discipline. I 'm still working out--about everyother day, I'm trying to burn at leat 200 cals each trip to the gym I make. I feel nervouse about to tomorrows weigh in, but I know it's something that I have to do.